People smiling and laughing,
wearing clean clothes,
talking in words I don't understand.
My lover sits with his other lover,
my stomach turns,
and my eyes hold back tears.
I don't feel at home there.
She gets up to hug me,
but I don't want to hug her.
I don't want to hug her,
but I don't want to turn her away.
It seems like pain follows me.
I don't feel at home here.
Where can I feel at home?
Will I create it in myself?
Or should I be searching for it?
this is exactly how i am feeling lately... wondering why i feel so disconnected from everyone. it's hard to feel welcome sometimes! and i think it's from some part of me that needs healing. but there is this idea that perhaps somewhere else i'd feel more welcome and connected and appreciated...celebrated!
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